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''...because we were young and stupid" 這是在Before Sunrise的續集, Before Sunset(愛在巴黎日落時)中所出現的台詞, 最近常常縈繞在我腦中揮之不去。 we are young and stupid, young and stupid.....每次回頭看過去的自己都多少覺得有些羞愧，總是知道的太少 ，總是不夠成熟。但有趣的是，在那每一個當下我們都是如此理直氣壯的。這就是年輕嗎...  有人可能覺得Before Sunrise過度浪漫，有人覺得這不過就是個一夜情故事。但是到現在為止，我已經看了不下五遍了，每次看都有不同的體悟。雖說是浪漫，但浪漫不也是真實生活的一部分嗎。兩個角色都各有欠缺、各有疑惑、各有堅持。就這樣子遇到了，就這樣子走在一起了，並不需要什麼理由。因為對方，他們會永遠記得這一天，他們會在日復一日的時間之流中註下標記，往後他們知道他們曾經過。 Daydream delusion, limousine eyelash  Oh baby with your pretty face  Drop a tear in my wineglass Look at those big eyes See what you mean to me  Sweet-cakes and milkshakes  I'm a delusion angel  I'm a fantasy parade I want you to know what I think Don't want you to guess anymore You have no idea where I came from We have no idea where we're going  Lodged in life Like branches in a river Flowing downstream  Caught in the current I carry you  You'll carry me That's how it could be Don't you know me? Don't yo...

西元70億年的日出 從地表升起的不再是美麗的黃色小圓盤 而是腫脹 炙熱 巨大 的紅色圓盤 海水沸騰 山脈融化 成了紅巨星的太陽 逐漸走向自我毀滅 太陽 死了 剩下密度高到不可思議的熾熱核心 紅巨星變成白矮星 科學家推測白矮星內有一顆幾千英里寬的宇宙鑽石 但是 恆星帶來最珍貴的東西 並不是鑽石 而是生命 我們阿 每一個個體 我們週遭一切的事物 都是星塵構成的 恆星爆炸 將星塵散佈於整個宇宙 散佈了生命的基本材料 ''you are stardust'' ''we are the child of the universe'' 我們的左手和右手 甚至可能來自於不同恆星的星塵 看了關於宇宙的介紹覺得內心被深深的觸動... 我想 研究宇宙的人  不可能是不信神的吧 因為一切都太偉大 太神奇了 到底是怎樣的力量 推動了一切的創造與週而復始的規律呢 看著宇宙 我們又能拿什麼樣的瑣事來讓自己煩心呢 我們是宇宙的孩子阿 我們生活在最美好的時光阿 太陽每天依舊溫文儒雅的升起 萬物都還興興向榮呢 感謝神 感謝自己心中的神 感謝天文學家

Desiderata   Max Ehrmann Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of ...

Yes we got free will Yes we got fate, fatalism as well But...how is it possible for this two to go with each other? Sounds very unreasonable, illogical and ridiculous And our lives are more or less the same

       從我有印象以來，最常看到的貓咪就是這種三色貓。小時候天不怕地不怕，看到貓咪就 抓起來抱著，還帶貓咪坐腳踏車後座。載人技術不佳的姊姊抓不穩龍頭，東搖西襬，轉彎時還不忘甩尾。我害怕會摔下車所以緊捉著貓咪，貓咪很怒，抓了我一掌就跳下車了。我記得我抱著的就是這種三色貓。        長大後遇到很多很兇的貓，常常對著只想打個招呼的我張牙舞爪，或是臭臉轉頭就走。 這隻肉鬆貓是我的第一隻貓朋友，他住在我家附近的巷子內。每次經過這裡，我一方面 覺得理所當然的，一方面又再次感到驚喜的瞧見他。 我在他面前蹲下的時候他會走過來，我說喵他就會說喵，我會摸摸他的頭和脖子。 有一次我拿了Bongos的魚排和他分著吃，他可能一直記得。        我覺得他是男生。        我不知道他到底幾歲了...有時我會懷疑，他是不是當初和我共乘腳踏車的那隻三色貓？                上禮拜在黃宗慧老師的「文學、動物與社會」課中讀到了海明威的Cat in the Rain， 才得知這種貓原來叫做tortoiseshell cat (玳瑁貓)。而且讓我驚訝的是雄性的玳瑁貓幾乎是不可能存在，除非是基因突變造成。而且，雄性的玳瑁貓沒有繁衍後代的能力。（維基百科還寫到，雄性玳瑁貓因稀少的緣故，在日本被視為幸運的象徵！）          原來我跟姊姊一直認為是隨處可見的三色貓竟然如此獨特！我一定要更珍惜和肉鬆貓之間的友誼。而且，說不定是他默默的帶給我很多好運呢:)。         

Jan. 26,  2010 今天的英美小說選讀10:00就解散了，我哪裡也不想去，在教室待著待到聊天的人都 一一離開了。我為什麼不離開呢？我預計幾點要離開呢？這些我都不知道也沒想太多 只是待著。忽然，有人拍了拍我的肩膀，我回頭一看竟然是Lynn！ 從大一就認識Lynn，第一次一起吃中餐的時候就覺得我們好像認識很久的朋友。 因為外文系的課很分散，我們參加的又是不同的社團所以不是很常見到面。但是每次遇見都能和彼此聊著重要的事，誠懇且無所保留...這真是很奇妙的一件事呢。 我喜歡在每次聊完天後，無論我的想法或立場如何，Lynn都會對我說一句：我支持你！ 我喜歡分開的時候總不忘記給我的溫暖擁抱:) 我想我已經不會再試圖說出朋友是什麼了。對我而言，朋友只是一個無關的名詞。 真正與我緊密相連的是那一個個真實且獨特的人。我也漸漸認知到...每個個體之間的情感關係其實都 是獨一無二， 且不可能被分類的。

Duane Michals (1932, American photographer) How could it be, That one day i will say goodbye to all of this, and miss the lilac spring, the maytimes whistling on the wing, and robin's kiss. In the summertime, When days and evenings are in rhyme, you will not find  me in the grove, among the lilies in repose, on weeding in the garden path, where scented sedum hold on fast. When autumn falls, I'll cast no shadow on the wall, or hear the owl's haunted hoot, high above the rotting root. When all is orange, russet, red, I not be there with you in bed. The day the silent snow descends, and lulls to sleep all living friends, I too will slumber in the earth, among the seeds and squirrel's birth. Who will miss me, who will care, When I am called and no one's there? I AM MUCH NICER THAN GOD It was last thursday, when David finally died, that I realized that I was  much nicer than God. I know that I would never had let him suffer  all those months. And I ne...

                                                                                            I think, visual images can always give us the most instant impact;music can put us into a certain atmosphere totally, and as for smell, it serves as the best way to connect with our memories. Sometimes you unexpectedly encounter a smell, which is so familiar and it's just like you're drawn back to some specific moments in the past. You still can tell what your feelings at that moment are even if you are not able to describe the whole scene clearly...This kind of experience is really special, and thus by heart we know that all the stuff in our memories do exist... In Amsterdam Airport, perfumes are on sale. i imagine that people from all over the wo...